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So there's this.

I'm trying to get my surgery set up. I was racking up six, seven thousand steps a day without even trying. You'd be amazed how many steps it takes to sweep and mop just one room.

The big news is.....I got on a bus. By myself.

There's a wonderful hardware store near here. The manager is a woman and they have a store dog. (ALWAYS patronize stores with store pets. ALWAYS.)

After some test runs with a VA staffer, I developed some panic attack mechanisms. The buses are new; they're fueled by a combination of eco-friendly fuels. They're built differently. They don't rattle. Plus I realized that one ride that I thought took at least twenty minutes.....took only two minutes. That's another coping trick.

With panic attacks, I sometimes can fake myself out by just doing something without planning or preliminary. Plus cold weather helps.

So.......it helps if there's a reward at the end, and that reward was this hardware stores. I LOVE hardware stores. Crack, man. Pure crack.

So.

I looked at saws, tools, bird feeders.....all kinds of great things. But I had to take a cab home because I got wiped out. The cab driver tried to get me to reduce the tip, but I like to give big tips, because....just because. Also? He made me laugh when we got into a discussion about the differences between IUDs and IEDs.

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gehayi
May. 6th, 2016 05:05 pm (UTC)
Congrats on getting on a bus! And I did not know you were planning on having surgery!
ginmar
May. 6th, 2016 06:04 pm (UTC)
I wasn't planning on it, but of course the VA fucked up and made it necessary.
bunnybutt
May. 6th, 2016 07:52 pm (UTC)
So pleased to hear you are able to adventure!
bkwrrm_tx
May. 7th, 2016 08:26 pm (UTC)
Bunnybutt!

::tacklehugs::
pameladean
May. 6th, 2016 08:12 pm (UTC)
You are the best cat person EVER.

I think I know that hardware store, though there is certain to be more than one with a great dog in it.

I'm so delighted about the bus; it hadn't occurred to me that those new ones would be easier. I still point at them and cry, "Hybrid electric bus!" when they go by, sometimes to the embarrassment of my friends.

P.
ginmar
May. 6th, 2016 10:05 pm (UTC)
You ain't the only one who loves thise hybrids, obviously----for a variety of reasons.
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ginmar
May. 6th, 2016 10:13 pm (UTC)
I used to have flashbacks of palm trees and dust and stone. My body knew where it was, but my brain would try and pull me somewhere else. The VA just brushed them off, because they considered my "attitude" a bigger problem, apparently.

As for those guys, that harassed that writers? I'd like to have a fucking flashback if they ever tried anything. I can't even articulate how infuriatingly inadequate and craven those little assholes are. I know that's not what I'm supposed to take away from that article, but I think there's a reason women get taught early and brutally that their anger will be viciously punished. I want more women to get more angry.
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tripleransom
May. 6th, 2016 11:47 pm (UTC)
amen, sister.
ginmar
May. 7th, 2016 12:11 am (UTC)
I cannot imagine, because when I was a kid, it was bad. There were want ads segregated by gender, girls couldn't wear pants to school, and married women couldn't have their own finances.
tripleransom
May. 6th, 2016 11:48 pm (UTC)
Congrats on the bus, best of luck on the surgery, and I love the picture!
jaegamer
May. 7th, 2016 12:48 am (UTC)
Woohoo! Good for you!
percy12
May. 7th, 2016 10:04 am (UTC)
congrat on bus trip
great picture best wishes with op
you are in my prayers
thanx for update
73
bkwrrm_tx
May. 7th, 2016 08:25 pm (UTC)
Fan-freaking-TASTIC.

Tools, man... tools are always a good incentive. :-)
fishsanwitt
May. 8th, 2016 03:25 am (UTC)
That is *wonderful* news, Gin. Congratulations!
honoria
May. 13th, 2016 03:51 pm (UTC)
Congrats on the bus trip, hugs to the kitties, and best of luck on the surgery!

So good to hear from you, Gin.
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