Huh. YOu know, it just amazes me how disingenuous my conservative trolls are. They say that I 'don't deserve the gift that is life', or host people who say shit like that----atomicsappertom I'm looking at you---and then they pretend they're all neutral and shit, when in fact, they were predisposed to hate me or any liberal or feminist, and broke my rules so they could whine about how mean and cruel I am. Of course, then the hatred just piles on and then you have people looking to find out who I really am, where I live, and so forth. They whine that I'm mean to conservatives; what they always neglect to mention is the asshole, say, who called rape victims frothing man haters so he could tout his sexual assault as the one, true, only sexual assault. They also ignore the fact that this is my blog, I set the rules, and if you break those roles---i.e,. coming here specifically to get banned---then the fault is yours, Mr. Conservative Moral Neutral Logically Perfect asswipe.

So I don't deserve to live and you think you can diagnose what's wrong with me. Here's what's wrong with you: you're all cowardly assholes who think you're too special to respect someone's rules, someone's privacy, someone's standards. The funny thing, the inescapable difference between these conservatives and me is that I'm not interested in invading their privacy, finding their real identity, locating their home address, threatening their safety, or any of that. Time and again, these people have threatened that, and tried to accomplish it. YOu know what? There's several people with my name on the web. To find me, you had to either pay for the information or somebody gave it to you. You guys all have the same friends and spout the same bullshit. Guilt by association is nothing but appropriate here. I can't tell one asshole from another one, not when they say the same shit, make the same threats, and parrot the same conservative talking points.

Guilt by association? You all have been doing this shit for years, regurgitating the same lies and bullshit about me from blog to blog, all the same, and now you're trying to track me down? I've never done that. I never will. I guess that's what passes for conservative honor these days.

Do try and justify this shit. Really. Come on. I dare you. By hosting it in your blogs, letting people post it in your comments, allowing it to go unpunished, you've fostered a community of stalkers and you should be ashamed of yourselves.

Bitch and moan all you want about OMG SHE'S SO MEEN but you can't get around the fact that it's you guys who've been winking at this stuff for years. Bitching at me wasn't good enough because I just decided to ignore you assholes, ban you from my blog, and get on with things. Then this malevolent shit began. How do you live with yourselves?

As examples:

Number one: PSA #1: Public availability of information
I get the impression that some people really don't get just how... transparent the universe has become. Between google, public directories, and a few other tools, there's more information about you out there than you really want to face up to. Public personnas, especially, are _easy_ to track down. At that point, it very much becomes a matter of what you choose to do with the information.

Number twoi disagree. whatever problems ginmar has, they are no excuse for behavior unless she is well and truly an unmedicated paranoid schizophrenic. she has proven to me that she is not worthy of her gift of life, and i'm not going to apologize for that judgement. and i'll only retract it when she decides to 1) medicate and/or 2) become a useful person, instead someone who's sole interest seems to be spreading hate and poison.

i honestly don't think you need to apologize to her, tom. the only one you need to apologize to is yourself, for wasting so much time on her.


Number 3: Eat shit, you fucking cunt. Iraqis could have raped your lying bitch ass up, down, and sideways for all I care, but I wouldn't even ask them for the film footage because a whore as repulsive as yourself would only be of sex value as a slash film, which clearly they never bothered to make. Since your life is of more value to them as an American traitor than it is as as a rotten corpse. (Wait, I just now realized that they got both. You stink of societal decay.)

Redacted: my first name, which only my friends use: you can kiss my filthy white capitalist ass, you dog-munging fuckwhore. Eat shit and die.

(PS - I'd be honored to be banned by you. All the best people seem to be on that list. Thanks!)

Number four, same person as three

My name redacted. This person threatens me, then addresses me like we're buddies?

I'd like to apologize for the postings I made last night on your LJ, and for descending to that level again in our exchange of comments this morning.

I was inebriated and stupid. Excuse number one! I intended to insult you in the most offensive way possible. You've attacked my friends in this way, and at the time I thought it was justifiable Excuse number two! It was not. I do not stoop to that level sober and I should not have done it drunk. Excuse number three!

If I don't like someone, I avoid them. The only reason I'm posting here is to do that. I understand there's a firestorm of comments about me. I haven't read them and am not interested in doing so. I *would*, however, like to apologize - as a civilized person - for not having been one last night. That level of offensiveness is never justified; it is beneath my dignity as a writer and a professional.

An apology, however, is not.

But blaming it on the person you threatened is.

Here's a clue, conservatives: blaming your behavior on the victim and on booze is not okay. It's on you. Funny, in all the years I've been blogging, I've never revealed someone's identity, or threatened them with stalking or rape.

Here's another clue: telling somebody they're crazy and too angry is a double-edged sword. If they're genuinely crazy, then you're an asshole. If they're not crazy, you're a liar. If they're justifiably angry, you're a tool. If they're not angry you're a manipulative shit for denigrating them. Oh, yeah, and calling women 'too angry' has a long history to it, whether or not you're a woman. Women who do this to other women are just sucking up to men. Men who do it are, as I noted above, manipulative assholes.

I've not been shy about writing about my struggles with PTSD. My detractors want to blame it on my PTSD, but also want to claim that I'm a bitch to begin with.

How do you live with yourselves? You're sane, adult, and like to consider yourself logical, fair, balanced, and superior. You disgust me.